Join me for international day againist homophobia May 17th

Well last year whilst getting a PSP for one of the clients I was working for I decided that I should get one too. I wasn’t really a great move as I don’t play games and have a real lack of patience when it comes to playing the games. If I die, I just throw the game down and refuse to play it for months on end but its time to change that, so have my psp all charged up ready for work and other times when im bored so lets see how I go.

The saddest thing is that I am stuck on the simpsons game about five minutes into it, and everybody I have asked can’t help me so thats proving annoying.

In other news work is going well, the biggest issue is the travel and cost of fuel to do that. I either start at 7am or 3pm and finish at 11pm which both are just too gross to be traveling by public transport to marrickville so looks like driving is the key. Would like to find somewhere to move over that way but have the issue of money and debt but oh well this is the consequences to my actions. Off to work again. Yay for getting money shortly!

Well haven’t I been a naughty boy over the past two months, for that sorry but lets move on.

Just a little update

Uni
I have started my uni course this year, overall its ok. Still very scared about how to enage and do the course material with the distance but more how to do the study at the level they are requiring without the understanding of doing a undergrad so its scary and this week is gonna require alot of work and moving past alot of the underlying shit that I do wanna do. It was fun to visit melbourne for the 2 days of classes catching trams and doing the whole uni thing but I was also very happy when it ended, it was just a bit to big for my little simple mind.

Mardi Gras
What a amazing experience marching have so many people happy and celbrating. People where all so happy. More than the experience of marching was for me the ending of a journey of me coming out and also accepting my faith with me been gay. There was just this overwhelming feeling of acceptance and okness for been gay & publicly christian.

Work
As most people are aware that I haven’t been doing alot of work, I have secured employment now working in the inner city for missionbeat with mission australia. The job is ok, not as great paying as I would like but for the moment I enjoy the work and the experience and thats good enough for me. Its gonna be a change of lifestyle as all this work is and the travel to marrickville is gonna be a drag but good enough for me.

Car
Well as most people are aware my subaru forester was crashed whilst in tassy late last year and my lazy & broke self hasn’t got the thing fixed but last week it went in for repairs and what a great feeling that was. Driving a nice camry around whilst my baby is repaired and I am so looking forward to picking her up!

Chaser
Last week Jimmy & adventure sam went ultimo to see the chaser put there new skits to a new audience for the first time and gosh it was funny. I think it will be funnier when they have microphones that don’t sound like they are been broadcast from underwater on the back of a speeding submarine. I think there will be some stuff you wont see in the show but oh gosh it was funny. So good times and thank you RSS feeds.

Everything else
Most things in life are good, having the normal ups & downs you get. Problems with friends makes me sad but again its part of life. Issues with men always provides entertainment, money isn’t great with such a number of different priorities so its gonna be another 3 months of living poor to get rid of some of my debt and start to get on my feet.

Right now
I am about to pack up my things for the weekend over in the innercity as most weekends. For mel’s daughters birthday party (kids party) then off to Al & Mickey’s engagement party with Bec in penrith. The plan is return to Mel’s party (adult) for a long night of drinking sorrows away. Sunday to sleep it off then off to work at 3pm yay for little traffic in the city.

Jenny please fix up spelling mistakes here (Username josh password is the normal one for everything…)

The internet is fixed, I type that as it starts to rain heavly. Lets see how things are going in the morning

Right now I have uni work to complete :() then will be back to talk about Mardi Gras (but there is photos on my facebook)

Well the day is upon us! Its Mardi Gras time. Report to follow

Well here I am sitting at Sydney Airport, gosh I feel like a frequent flyer was only here last week. I have done soo much flying in the last few years; its funny it has all fun flying used to be exiting now just feels like a bus just more expensive.

Also my firefox is gone funny everytime I correct a spelling mistake the first option is Adolescent but when you click on it, it really gives you the option that should be there. Stupid.

Just getting so exited about Mardi Gras seen 5 or 6 gay or lesbian couples arriving at the airport from around the country its great a time of year for any GLBT person.

Still having major issues with internet, its been 3 weeks 5 days since the phone lines at my place went down so its all very frustrating.

Today I am heading down to Melbourne until saturday morning for uni. Its really exiting heading down to do my post grad in Adolescent health & welfare from Melbourne uni. Return early saturday morning for Mardi Gras, its all very exiting. Will keep you posted.

Well I have just returned from my trip to Tasmania, and man that was a rocky flight, I have flown more than I can remember and that was the funnest trip that I ever had, from the time we left Launceston till landing in Sydney it was up, down, shake, rock, roll. I was working on a training schedule for some training I am conducting for a friend, and gosh the roller coaster made it that much more fun. Also good to know that you’re getting value for money; means that the pilots need to work instead of opening their little window and having a smoke whilst the computer does it all.

Anyway, Tasmania was amazing, lots of good times with lots of fun people. Interesting to see where my relationships in Tasmania are up to, just who goes to the effort and who doesn’t. Everytime I go down a friendship appears to be more distance which is a normal process which im used too. It was hard to leave as always, Tasmania & my friendships down there have a special place in my heart, also really hard to get off the plane, get 4hrs sleep and then drive down the coast for my grandfather’s funeral then having to deal with all the other shit facing me in Sydney. In other news have my rehearsal for marti gras coming up with Bec on Saturday. I am very exited; always enjoy the marti gras. This year I am going with Metropolitan Christian church, on a float titled “Jesus wouldn’t discriminate” dressed as white angels. I have a growing passion for the gay community especially in regard to amount of hurt between the gay community and the wider church.

It’s funny my parents are always scared about me going out with my gay friends, especially dad been a public health person, he just sees day to day the effect of STI’s and always gives me the lecture anytime I do head out onto the strip, but thats ok. This year my friend Bec is gonna look after me, make sure I don’t drink too much or go home with anybody too crazy.
So funeral tomorrow; should be interesting. It has been coming for a while and struggling with feelings. Death has always been apart of my life, from personal experiences, parents occupation and just the normal dealing that life brings and this feels rather normal especially that it hasn’t been unexpected; will be monitoring my emotions closely and very lucky that Dave is coming down with me.

Anyway the plane is about to make its decent into Sydney, after what the pilot says was 200km/h winds!

Well at the moment I am having a great time in Tasmania, It has been a welcome break and enjoying every moment of my trip. Too put a damper on the event after a long battle with cancer, yesterday my grandfather passed away yesterday morning quietly in his sleep. Looks like the funeral will be on Wednesday or Thursday after I return tomorrow night. I don’t wanna sound overly horrible or anything but I don’t feel really cut up about it, yes I am sad but this has been coming for a while so was expecting it doesn’t make it easy though.

Well here I am in mmelbourne airport. The story goes that I got a flight from newcastle to melbourne then melbourne to tasmania with tiger. I had a 2hr gap between flights. My sister paid for me, and I booked the flights. Two days later I got a email from tiger saying sorry due to operational reasons the newcastle to melbourne flight has been reshueduled to a later time, which means I would miss my connecting flight. After speaking to the call centre in some asian country somebody was gonna contact me which they never did. The long story short was that I booked a flight with Virgin to get me to melbourne this morning loosing my money from orignal flight. They have issues with there phone number that it is always busy. I attempted to call them 40 times yesterday but couldn’t get on. It really annoys me; anyway the other issue is that they charge $11 for every kg over there feaking 15kg limit and I can’t do my old trick of just putting 15kgs in my carry on bags because they weight that too, so anyway its really annoying there is no tiger stuff in australia. It is really annoying and for sure never gonna fly with tiger again. I am just looking forward to arriving in launceston and forgetting this whole experience. Just glad I am flying back with Jetstar! Anyway life goes on. Soo looking forward to tassy though; will keep you informed.

P.S happy valentines day to my wife!
P.S.S Jenny please fix up my spelling mistakes

Who will be the 20000 person?

You can win some old fusion business cards & a pepsi max

Well just a heads up people that some big things are about to change, there won’t be much notice and not gonna discuss it until after it all happens. (Yes I am vague but please respect that) but its time I made some decisions for me and my mental health & growth, things are looking exiting, very scary but feels right.

because I am never gonna have my own children; this won’t be a problem.

Well as most people know last year my grandmother almost died last, whilst her partner was down (they had been separated for a number of years) my mother observed how his appearance had changed, looking very gaunt. When my grandfather returned home to QLD mum encouraged him to go to a doctor, after a number of tests it was found that he had developed lung & bone cancer it was said that it would be lucky for him to make it till Christmas. Amazingly he did, I think my parents enjoyed spending Christmas with him.

Anyway he has been getting worse and it looks like that the coming week or so will be his last. All of the family are going down spending as much time with him, he now is in Berry Hospital receiving Palliative care. I am going down with my sister on Thursday and possibly could be our last visit. This isn’t unexpected but still is hard when it continues to unravel as reality.

To make things worse I received a phone message this afternoon letting us know that an uncle (uncle but not in blood) has a heart valve problem which appears to late to repair. He is in QLD hospital in bad shape.

I seem to cope with these things with no problem; I am not sure if its a good thing or me just used to been around crisis but the family is finding it hard, it has been a huge year for the whole family and it just seems to keep getting worse.

It appears in the last week alot of my relationships are just having falling outs, its not like anybody has said anything to me but you can feel when friends are angry at you. Its more than a few; which brings me to the question. What have I done? Due to the number of friendships its lots of people so its gotta be me. Its just hard to know what I have done especially when nobody tells me, makes it hard to change but oh well we live and learn.

The other thing about friendship is when things are tough, it really shows who your friends are and I am learning some interesting lessons.