I did a stupid thing this week, on Sunday I made the comment in my head “wow that’s amazing I didn’t get sick this time in Tassie” yay. That was a mistake after having 4 days off & only coming back to work today because I have to for a trip to Orange in need to run yay. I love virus’ & chest infections I think there fun…. Also went to another a doctor on Wednesday because my normal guy wasn’t working she wasn’t very nice won’t be going back to her. Wants me to get blood tests I only have a virus!
Heading to Orange tomorrow, well later today can’t sleep so I just took a sleeping bill & waiting for it to kick in.
Something’s I feel overwhelmed with the world, I am into knowing what’s happening abroad and always listening to the BBC or reading some site on the internet if I have the chance but so often will feel just so sad but also not knowing what to do or how to change it. I think I will feel angry but powerless then the only way I can deal with it is to become complacent about it or just stop caring but I hate just pretending its not there but now do you deal with it?
I hear all this stuff about the Middle East conflict, imaging been there just been a person trying to life your life and there is all this crap going around. Or in Iraq where is normal to hear a explosion or know there is a fair chance that you could die to day buying food or having a coffee with a friend.
BBC tonight said that over 1000 people had gone through the City Morgue, mostly from violence. In comparison I am scared if my car is going to get stolen or ticked off if another punk spray paints my fence again! At least there isn’t a risk of my house been blown up my missile going to the “insurgents” (middle aged family with 3 young children) next door.
I feel a little safer tonight & a little more love for God. Time to sleep knowing there is more than good chance I will survive the night not like others.